april spring morning

resisting resisting

putting myself forward

saying yes

committing

not kicking

myself in the mouth again,

me and my tendency to throw

the (my) baby out with the (very dirty) bathwater

then he walks in

just like every morning

but this morning

i notice the sway of his hips

the turn of this chest

the focus of his mind

work work work -

few things as provacative

enticing

as the focused mind

suddenly he is attractive?

No.

It is his concentration I want.

Pay attention to me!

but who, really,

am I talking to?