walls, and flowers, and some sunshine

It was his unavailability

that drew her

his impossibility

that piqued her interest

the boundaries

that first she then he

had drawn

she immediately

now

so wanted

to break

them all down

make them crumble

make him

want her

even though she

had raised the wall first

knowing she

needed the safety

of tall walls.

and when he became

clearly

beautiful

growing deepening living fully

she resented her own

needs

for walls;

resented

her own desires

for skin;

yearned

for his

beauty

for a living

that was not hers.

but there

are some flowers

which need space

to grow

to garden

you must see

when the seeds are small

and how when they are

growing

they need protection

from the winds

and all those

outside of the garden.

especially

the beautiful ones

who seem to take all the

sunshine.

for a living that is

mine

garden growing deepening

keep turning

inwards

and then turn again:

the sunshine

is higher

than the walls.